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Something interesting happened about a month ago. It started out as a regular evening, I got dressed and put my game face on, but had no expectations whatsoever. I was seriously lowballing it. So imagine my surprise when I woke up somewhere other than my own home the next day.

And she was just… stunning. Georgeous. The most magnificent being I’ve ever had the honor to encounter. Her smooth skin under my fingertips, her pearly white smile… I was absolutely dumbstruck. Se was so very much out of my league. It just didn’t feel real.

And for a few days I felt as if this was it. That something could really come of it. But as much as I was ecstatic, I was worried - seriously questioning, wether I had anything to offer to another person? How would the logistics work? The budgeting, the entertainment, the career and hobbies… It made me realize I needed to make some serious changes in my life in order to make anything between myself and another person work.

So I was almost relieved (although bittered and obviously a little hurt) when she told me off. That this really was a one-time thing. A vacant space in my heart with not much else but a pale memory. Then again, it reminded to sort my life out, so if another opportunity should arise, I wouldn’t miss it.