fertilizer

I guess you have to appreciate the little wins in life. When my bank account started to scrape absolute zero last week, I randomly noticed the price of bitcoin had gone up, and remembered I had copped some way back when. Turns out it had appreciated in value quite a bit. Not a lot, but still - enough to cover a months worth of expenses, if needed. 

I then had messed up booking a dentists appointment. I had long hit snooze on it due to financial situation, but felt I needed to go stat due to a sensitive tooth. Managed to get one the very next day and had a wisdom tooth removed. Costs with the dental care benefit - 48 euros. Not nothing, but way better than I expected. 

Then got a call with an offer for Go3 subscription with HBO Max and Paramount+ included for 5.49 per month. It's an expense, but a reasonable one. A little win. 

The psychologists visit cost as much as my annual Hot Wheels budget, but it was a bit unavoidable. I guess. 

So... Long story short I'm no longer working at the position I was working on a month ago. I guess I could have seen it coming with some of the feedback I got, but it felt easier to downplay it as impostor syndrome. Turns out I was an impostor after all - a qualified one, but still. The four brief months I had a little income, a downtown office, and a tangible dream to pay back my debts in a year. So when that abruptly ended, I found myself a little lost and desparate, to say the least. Spent a couple of weeks in Finland, had a little bit of a vacation and cleaned my mind a little. And let the panic set in. The situation is bad, but it's the fertilizer for the future. 

At least I managed to snab an employee interest rate credit card. That will help me to stretch my resources a little. And I still have some unused Stebby credit. I guess that's something.